Declaration of readiness for Twin Soul Reunion

I sit here, alone, in darkness.  Only the light of a room adjacent to me illuminates the interior of my home.  Tonight, I feel dark inside, barren, empty.  The light which shines within me is extinguished for the moment.  I did a solar return chart on myself and the results were nearly frightening.

It is not a joyous thing when you realize the person you love so much, with all your heart and soul, may not be the person you are supposed to be with.  It is most difficult to understand that the woman whom you would have done anything to win the heart of may be, in fact, the worst possible match for yourself or that, worse still, you may be the worst possible match for her.  This is where the rubber meets the esoteric road, when you must look deep inside yourself and think and listen, release all your attachment and understand what must be versus what is.

Right now, I have no clue what must be.  All I know is what is.  I am am unhappy, in a marriage which is not working, in a situation in which my prospects are dim and my soul is fading.  My energy has dimmed beyond recovery in so many ways, I have sought the help of a friend who is rather expensive to help me out.  At the end of the day, I pray that my endeavors are worth the time, but I can only feel complete distress and despair.  All I feel is the energy being drained from me from forces beyond my control, which seek to destroy all who stand in their way.  They may be winning.

I call upon my friends, allies and angels to help me.  I beg for the forgiveness of the universe for the mistakes of my past, and cry out to my Twin Soul for support in the most dangerous hour of my life.  I ask her with all my heart and all my soul to please tell me who she is somehow, some way, so I know for certain.  Without knowing who she is, I have so little hope of saving myself.  If she is with someone and is happy, I will rejoice in that I can finally find peace and move on.  If she is single and happy, the same.  If she is missing me and wishes me to return to her, I beg her to just acknowledge her presence so I know who she is.  This is all I ask.  For me to be whole within myself, I can do the rest and begin the hard work.  I just need to know.

I call upon the universe and those who have aided me before to grant me this profound wisdom and sacred knowledge.  The Dark Horse needs his Lady in his life, even if it cannot be romantic.  He needs to know she exists., and so he is no longer cold and barren, but knowing her energy is there, to help guide him back to where he belongs.  I am ready to stop running.  I no longer wish to run, but to know who she is.  When she tells me who she is, I will begin the process of reunion.

I am ready, and waiting to know.